You park your car outside my house And run inside while the snow pours down I look you over while you’re looking around Your blue eyes make my thoughts so loud Would you like to sit tight through Doolittle while our bodies carousel? You press your face against my chest Progress the pace as you get undressed Talking now I would have never guessed You like Vonnegut and I’m impressed Yes, I like you, you cut right through my thick head when I’m talking to myself My music flows in with a couple texts I’m decomposing Communication slows then you get to know the name that time’s exposing I talk you up but you bring me down I can’t tell if you want me around or if I blend in like when snow falls down I knew this girl at Central and She said she saw potential in This guy driving her mental when She deserves a goddamn gentleman It’s not often that he’d soften her name cause he’s hard-pressed with himself But she knows that she’s been blessed well That doesn’t help when she’s depressed still And they say your hearts a vessel When they say your songs are special I heard that, but I’ve learned that we’re all just talking with ourselves When her music flows in, I can’t tell if my ears are closing Or if my minds frozen, cause, baby, all I hear is a choir of ghosts and It trips me up when I’m walking around I’m trying to separate these sounds, but they all just blend in like when snow falls down

And so we're again Same basement with our friends The week comes to an end and let the festivities begin Six beers and moving slow Smash bros does not get old (!!!) And Nathan's always got the bangers playing from his phone Bop bop Sit on the couch with you Hey man what's good, what's new? Now with your 9-5, this beer's what you're looking forward to Cause We all just waste away And my music dreams won't stay But it bums me out, I hear your parents talking when you say "Kid, you're going nowhere," and I hear it but I don't care I just smile as you blow air like the Beatles toured the world on day 2 But if it's nowhere, it's a non-stop grind to go there, yea So while your life is no-fair, I'm a rockstar with my bedroom debut

We’re two kids sitting on a doorstep You’re smoking out your lungs while I’m breathing in the tree sap I talk sweet but the recipe don’t back up You talk big but your plans they don’t stack up Snuff, flick, it’s fine I put out most of what I’m thinking You’re standing there smiling, withholding, and blinking You blow your smoke and I tell you I believe you I check my phone, say it was nice to see you My method’s refined When I walk away These thoughts they stay And on rainy days I just wash away back like Remember when we jumped over the fence To the highway in the woods, toking till it made sense Now you’re pressed in like graffiti in the concrete The roads of my passed all tattooed on me And crossing through my spine Now I’m looking back on the things I never told you When life was getting heavy and I didn’t want to hold you With all these kids that I drop at the station You think I’d get hit with the realization This happens all the time When I walk away My mind replays Some wild bouquet That time blows away just like I walk away When I wanna stay Cause it hurts to say Don’t walk away But now I’m in place When my heart’s at stake You could crash in shame I wouldn’t walk away, no

Please don’t wake me up, I’m feeling fine The spin it just shakes me up, I stay offline The numb it just takes me up, my bed’s clound nine My thoughts divine, yea

When we were kids we used to go and play in the woods My cousin Danny he would wander off if he could Gave me a feeling in my deep gut, tried to brush it off but Even at eleven I think I understood The kid was looking for a world that he would never find Trying to match the beauty that he saw in his mind When he was looking for that divine kind, walking upon the fine line Ghost in the blind side, couldn’t see but I tried And when I would sleep over we’d stay up all night Yea, on sleeping bags we’d talk of everything in sight I would fall asleep with him awake and drift off to his voice ringing Sitting in the dark, staring out the window, always singing [Chorus] Beyond the skyline’s where I want to go When this world has got me low Where the neon in my spine lets my body glow All my love it shows Then we got older, he got bit by the bug Danny went and got himself addicted to drugs Conversations always mucked up, his eyes are always fucked up I’d start to see his future just spun out on the rug And he’d start to keep his door locked all of the time Excuses now are coming out rehearsed and refined Like “it’s only the second time. At the point it’s all benign. Another way I can unwind. Recline, line, and feel sublime.” I tried to call him out, said “Like I don’t know You got this pain pumping through your blood that you won’t show" And I was instantly cut off For the things he’d cut up, his body would run off [Chorus] Then one day I got the call from the back of my mind With Danny’s mom crying on the other line And I had no way to mask it at the open casket Shattered like a stained glass cosmic design And I can’t pick up the pieces to make sense of it all I just stay awake at night and bang my head on the wall Trying to tell myself that it wasn’t my fault But then my head caterwauls and the time it just stalls Back to when he would talk about his ideal world Got the perfect binary, good and bad don’t swirl I would roll my eyes and shut the door, now every night I’m looking for The words I should have told him, maybe I could find them [Chorus]

I seen you ramble down the hallway, glowing When we’re late for class and my face is showing My nervous heart cause I’m jazzed just to share your scene Do you wanna split and hang down by the bleachers? I got two smokes rolled up in my t-shirt You wanna light this up and see what we could be? I wanna charm you with my sweet talk prying But I ain’t nothing but a hound dog a-crying I wanna write my song and bark it up your tree Because your love is sweet like soda pop The way your eyes go soft as you’re sipping I bubble up inside, I don’t wanna stop Now, sugar, please, my tongue is slipping, yea Now I take you out to the drive in movies Cause I got the guts to say your new look’s groovy I dig the shorter hair, your eyes all heavy and blue You really kill me with those lips sometimes I’m going blind cause you’re pure sunshine And my words are jiving round, but my heart’s going steady on you We’re quite the pair for suburban lovers Hun, we rock and roll as we’re burning rubber Our love is money and, baby, it’s ready to boom Because your love is sweet like soda pop The way your eyes go soft as you’re sipping I bubble up inside, I don’t wanna stop Now, sugar, please, my tongue is slipping, yea I’m falling for you

I waste a lot of time on conversations I rehearse Just to get smacked in the face by friends with alcoholic thirst And yea I’ve been there before, but I am not there now Guess I got tired of feeling down But I never know what I am doing, just know I have to act Try to make a funny face, I gotta make this baby laugh Why are you always so stubborn, can’t you cut yourself some slack Kid, I know you’re gonna crack Well if you’re trying to try, you’re trying now I’m trying cause we’re dying anyhow So I’m wilin’ out

Back in December I remember when we first met And looking back it’s obvious your feelings had not dispersed yet From the first text I was someone to reverse that Hurting that you got and so I’m caught up in your cursed net But I didn’t know that when started to chat Said your nice to look at, wanna come to my flat And like that, right back, where you live at In fact, New Britain, sitting in tonight to kick back And with that we sit back, movie going click-clack Whiskey straight in my hands to mask my shaky syntax And keep my nerves intact, my chest feels the impact Arm’s round my shoulder as I follow along on this track The laptop glows on our connected grins Pressing in the blue reflective dim Got me buzzing off your electric skin My head throbs, verging on this reckless spin Stop Smoking in the living room, honest talking high About the sparkle in my eye that denotes a darker side And your passion makes me try, so you can take me in your stride But now I’m sitting here docked at the end of the ride thinking You’ll get what’s coming to you The hoops you drag people through Oh, baby, it’s true You bit off what you can’t chew So now you’ll get what’s coming to you The weeks go by, got me wondering what I’m doing here I take you out to breakfast and you kiss me on the new year With champagne lips, whisper into my skewed ear I want you in the morning, well that makes two, dear And when we don’t work, we just lay in bed With memes, cats, bears, xbox instead With head, lights off, underneath a thin spread When spent, sat up, put your hand on my chin, said It’s been two years since I got this tattoo Time moves fast and you know it’s making me sad too Rolling down your cheeks I could see the pain that grew So in my arms, grabbed you and I had you But since we’re being real I’m gonna start trying To let it pop, what’s bottled up inside my head And I said, I dread the way that I fed Getting left on read, yea, the way that I bled But the truth is that I deserve what I was handed For ghosting that girl when I left her stranded No words, boarded the train to abandon But it’ll come round again and you will understand it [Chorus] Got me walking in the February rain almost daily And mainly it’s just me trying to see it plainly But lately maybe my vision’s going hazy You won’t hit me back, and it’s got me going crazy For five days I’m bouncing around inside my head For five days I’m laying down beside my dread In my bed I tread on everything that you said Till my sanity is left dangling by threads And I get a buzz on my phone, your text Sorry and you’re still in love with your ex Fine, but I object to the way you kept Your comfort above the feelings you wreck So you can go and play your sad act, baby, I don’t buy that You should hit the back track and maybe you’ll arrive at The Lexapro, the double dose that you saw in my bag I live with the blues and I’ll never deny that But I’m so handsome that it hurts Watch me get the man that I deserve Cause I’m funny and I’m clever too Got features that you never knew And as for your whichever boo, well fuck it you can have him too [Chorus]

I grind some coffee and pay my rent on time My AC’s cold, but with my hoodie I don’t mind And planned vacations, my brothers’ drinking beers “You look much better,” improving every year Then my mind just veers Throwing rocks off piers I stomp my judgment and see your face online I’m pausing time now, the progress all unwinds Cause my mind still veers We’re throwing rocks off piers I wish you would disappear

You hop out your car, smoking hand rolled cigarettes An awful taste, but it’s your image and you stick with it You're sick of kids and partying, but this one, well everybody goes But you’re an old soul, tattooed your arm so everybody knows You gotta make sure everybody knows You’re making your rounds, gracing circles, blessing them But these aren’t conversations because you’re not listening Just waiting to talk, you think in accolades and oh my god it shows Like you don’t care, you cut off your jeans so everybody knows You gotta make sure everybody knows But I don’t care if you listen to The Pixies I’m goddamn tired of you spouting all the names that you know Drop the flare, man, just hit me with the kicks please I hate this game, man, I am walking home Now I’m off the clock, a no one that the crowd adores And I wanna rock, but I’m a microphone without a chord I spit philosophy, my heart’s a concert, yet nobody shows It’s just not fair, cause when I’m on edge, then everybody knows Yea, I’m on edge and everybody knows But no one ever cares, that’s the truth, so deal with it And let it get you high or let it make you feel the pit But your world will topple down when piss-drunk off an ego your size No one’s impressed, but it’s amazing when your mind believes your lies My god, I wanna kick you in the teeth sometimes But I don’t care if you listen to The Pixies I’m goddamn tired of you spouting all the names that you know Drop the flare, man, just hit me with the kicks please I put my headphones in so I can let go